Love from Nadia ❤

Hello Friends,

It has been rough couple of weeks for me and I’m laughing to myself about last month’s newsletter and how I was allowing myself to be in the mysterious unknown and all that came with it. I had learnt to surf the waves of the unknown and started to feel a bit cocky :)

This month I took a tumble, the waves have thrown me around and spat me out. I have been holding on tight and learning to surrender all at the same time.

I got sick, but it was such a mix of stress and illness, I’m not sure what came first the chicken or the egg. What did I have? Literally everything you could have all at once.

I spent a lot of time in bed even though I tried to override it a few times, it wouldn’t let me. It has been 2 whole weeks and finally, as I write this and taught my class the other morning, I feel like I am me again in my life.

I am rarely ill, in fact, the last time I felt like this, was my first Covid round in March 2020. I feel grateful that I feel like I can do life again.

The thought of anything really, seemed too much.

I think for me, worse than getting physically ill, was where my mind and emotions went. It has been a very long time since I have felt down. And it was a very real feeling. I realised it’s easier to feel down when you are on your own. I could manage and somewhat control it. It was hard telling my partner I felt low and depressed. A part of me didn’t really know why, and a deep part of me did.

It also brought up a lot of feelings that needed addressing and that would mean having some difficult conversations and rocking the boat. I hate boats that rock. I get seasick. I like it when boats are calm, steady and cruise.

I did some research and of course, viruses are a depressive, and of course not eating and being in bed didn’t do my mind and emotions too much good, even though it helped to rest my physical body.

So, I took things slow, I stayed off my phone and any social media. Still not sure what I have to say on socials, especially when I am not feeling particularly social. I slept a lot and watched Griselda on Netflix, which I’m not sure was quite the right choice when not feeling great, but it was so good I couldn’t stop.

A week later I took a walk, upped my fluids, and got my appetite back again. Slowly I took a walk around the block. The sun came out after weeks of rain and I sat with my cup of tea in the morning light. I didn’t force myself to do too much, just literally what I had to and didn’t give myself a hard time about being below subpar. Very unlike me. Taking hot showers felt really good. Making my bed felt really good. I let myself sleep in a bit in the mornings where I could, and I limited my social interaction because energy was limited.

This I feel like life force has been blown back into me. I woke up and started my morning routine again. I taught, I’m writing to you, and I feel like possibility is returning.

It has made me aware how important it is nurturing and nourishing the inner world. How small and consistent goes such a long way. It changes the view on so much when you have some internal spaciousness and a wider perspective.

I travel to London soon and am excited to let you know I have 2 workshops coming up in April at Love Supreme Projects.

A women’s breath work and healing circle on the 7th of April with Lisa Pauley on the crystal bowls.

This is a limited event and not available online.

And a workshop on the 13th of April, 2-4pm. I will be teaching an uplifting, expansive and deeply relaxing class. A mix of yoga, breathing, meditation and relaxation. All these elements combined to fill us up and tend to our internal world. A little spring clean on the inside so we can shine brightly on the outside. Both will be on sale this week.

Classes will continue on zoom on Mondays at 6pm GMT

And a breath work class online 2 x a month.

I have been so pleased with how much people are getting out of these classes.

An email I got from someone the other day really moved me….

“Thank you for today. I was able to access such a deep level of relaxation today that I don’t think I have ever been able to feel before and it felt amazing to be able to access that and know it is available to me”.

I take for granted being healthy and happy. I am fit and well. I wake up pretty happy every day. I love what I do. I am in a really lovely relationship. Life is sweet. So, when I got hit with a virus, with a dash of a challenging situation with my Mum, combined with some tricky conversations in my relationship, it all culminated in a hard few weeks.

Instagram is filled with happy pictures, lots of content making and a generally weird place to spend any time when you don’t feel great. It is also a hard place to get into honest conversations about some of the trickier parts of life. Which is why I am enjoying Substack.

Please read on and subscribe if you would like a little more help navigating feeling low, stuck, or just finding it challenging sitting in the discomfort.